I loved you and
You loved me not enough
Leaving me broken.
TLW
Tag: vent poetry
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She doesn’t look like the person I loved because she wasn’t.
She was never real with you, that was not her,this is her.
She has always been this person, but you refused to see.
She was never your person, and you
were just convenient.
So doesn’t look like the person I love
because she isn’t.
T.L.W
12/14/22 -
It feels like torture
Even when I want to push you out
When I am done with you
When I want nothing else
Even when I am not holding on
You won’t leave me.
You have imprinted on my soul.
I want to move beyond
I want to move forward
But my soul is still holding on
You won’t leave me.
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I had been down this road before.
I knew what this feeling had in store…
But I kept on, down the road,
Oh I kept on down that road.
Couldn’t resist the look in her eyes,
Or the fear of the goodbyes.
I wanted to hold you through the night
Keep warm in my arms wrapped tight
Lay or heads down on pillows for rest
Search our souls to the final test
I had been down this road before
Already knew what was in store
couldn’t stop from wanting more
What I want I am not sure
I had been down this road before
I knew what it had in store.
I lie awake at night and ache for you
I walk my days in search of you
My heart is empty yet remains whole
The pieces taken are from the soul
And yet I still have love to share
Don’t know if she would even care.
I had been down this road before
Already knew what was in store
Couldn’t stop from wanting more
What I want I am not sure
I have been down this road before
So knew what it had in store.
I just don’t want to hurt no more
I want to be happy like before
Don’t want hurt no more
Just be happy like before…
I already knew what was in store
Cuase I been down this road before. -
I said no one had ever cared for me
No one ever put me first, I lived with a
Narcissistic person.
I was damaged by years of not being considered
I went years not being allowed to be an
Equal partner
I lived a life where nothing could ever
Be about me.
You saw this broken soul so deserving
Of love and care
You saw your drug, and you were hooked
Cycle begins.
You were making me so happy, gifts, messages, attention.
I soaked it all up like a sponge, filled with
Love and lust.
You were everything I had ever been hoping
For in love.
I felt that you were perfect, exactly my person in every way.
The rush, the intimacy of giving me what I
So needed.
Feeling that what I needed was you, and you wanted to give.
You finally had a partner to share with, and care for.
You were suffering and the only thing you knew was me.
I became everything to you, having me,
Loving me.
You spent your days trying to figure out how to see me.
You spent your nights worrying about how to be with me.
You spent your nights worrying about how to be without me.
You spent everything you had worrying about
Me.
I spent everything I had being there for you
To love.
I gave into every call, text and request to come to you.
I lived to respond to you and assure you as
The cycle continued.
You were able to see the only solution was to break
You knew ending the cycle was our only way
Out.
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Rather Random Ramblings: Northern VT 